merry christmas, please don’t call - bleachers

it’s yet another day of a horrible corporate job. how does a creative person that doesn’t become rich from their art survive in this world?

I was listening to a podcast the other day where the guy was talking about the state of our world and my country and how the salaries are not enough, the jobs are miserable and the working environments depressing. i could understand everything he was talking about.

i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to escape this, my living hell, the office job. everybody older says that i’m doing the right thing. I have a stable job with a stable salary and a future. i have something solid. but is it really of any meaning? does it matter that it’s solid when i want to shoot my brains out every single time i sit on that chair?

the money is for sure not enough yet to get me financially stable and completely independent.

and what about everything i want to be? what about every version of me that has come before that always dreaded the office job. i can’t let her down just for barely getting by. i can’t do this to her, to them. they had dreams and aspirations and ideas that didn’t correlate with any of the conventional careers. they wanted to change the world, to see the entirety of the world, to be an artist. they wanted to meet as many people as possible, spend as much time as possible in nature, far away from screens. i can’t just give all of that up for a boring, minimum wage office job.

i need to get out. i need to go back to myself. i need to go back to nature. everybody does. people need to start spending more time outside to reconnect with themselves , their needs, and this beautiful world we can’t seem to be able to stop destroying with our stupid technologies and innovations.

I BELIEVE ALL HUMANS ARE CONNECTED TO SOMETHING NATURAL. THIS IS HOW I DEFINE SPIRITUALIITY, I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS CONNECTED TO SOMETHING IN THIS WORLD IN A WAY THAT’S SO MUCH MORE EXTRAORDINARY AND IMPACTFUL THAN A SIMPLE LIKE OR DISLIKE. HUMANS ARE NATURAL CREATURES AND THEY WILL ALWAYS CRAVE AND NEED TO GO BACK HOME. OUR HOME IS THE EARTH. WE NEED TO GO BACK TO IT IN A MORE HOLLISTIC AND THOUGHTFUL WAY. WE NEED TO BE ABLE TO SEE THE STARS BEFORE WE GO TO BED. WE NEED TO BREATHE FRESH AIR, TO FARM AND PRODUCE. WE NEED TO GO BACK TO NATURE.

CAPITALISM IS RIPPING EVERY HUMAN SENSE AND VALUE WE HAVE AWAY. WE NEED TO GO BACK BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE.

MAYBE IT ALREADY IS TOO LATE. BUT I AM 20 AND IT’S NOT TOO LATE YET.

FUCK CAPITALISM

VALEA